My Granny is a sweetheart
She gave me joy, hope and delight
She was my sunshine
In all meanings
I loved her and still do
I will never forget her
Although she is so far away now
She will forever be in my heart
And never will anything do us apart
Because she is always with me
In dreams and in day light
I see her all the time
I see her everywhere
She is with me now
And will always be with me
I don’t have to see her in reality
Cause her soul is with me
Surrounding me and fulfilling me
With all her love and her beautiful smile
That gives me strength and faith
Words will never be enough
To describe my love
And my great loss.
Never ever thought that this day will come
Or to be more precise, never wanted it to come
Although I knew she was getting older
And I’ve seen the changes in her walk, talk, and her shrinking face
But to hear about her death, is unconvincing
Not because I don’t understand, nor that I have no faith
But because she is my Everything.
I could have believed it if anybody else died; even it would have been her husband
Who is my Grandfather, and it was even expected.
But her, My Granny, the love of my life, NO.
I do understand that it happened and that her life has ended
But I can’t imagine that I won’t see her again
Not to mention that I won’t talk to her as well
This is the hardest of all.
Now that I am far away from home, I am still wondering
How will it be when I go back home in summer
Going there and not finding her around
Not running towards her warm hug and kissing her
I will Then face the greatest shock, not NOW.
Maybe I will ask my grandfather where is she?
Or maybe I will go straight to the kitchen to search for her
I don’t know what I will do then
Or what will I do later
It is all Over.
I heard the bad news
I heard that my granny is unwell
And that her case was critical
All I wanted was to go and see her
I had to see her
Although I am so far away
I am not in the same country anymore
I am not so close to her like before
But I decided that I have to see her
Even though I’ll leave my kids
All alone, first time to do this
But it was something that I had to do.
I arrived there the following day
I went running to see her before it’s too late
I was so worried that I wouldn’t make it on time.
And then what did I see? Who did I see?
Where is my granny?
Who is this body lying on bed in this hospital?
Yes she has the same resemblance
Although with great difference
But where is the life of my granny
Where is her soul and being?
She was supposed to be living.
I didn’t see my sweet granny
I didn’t see the one I know
And now that it’s time for me to go
I feel so bad, unsafe, terrified and so low.
Where is my granny? I want to see her, hold her, kiss her, hug her
And I want her to feel me too, and then I can go.
Will I be able to see her again?
I really really don’t know.
This blog is dedicated for my Granny whom I love extraordinarily. I lived with her all my life before getting married, she was my true mom who made all my dreams come true. You will find my full story on my "All True" blog soon.